Painkiller

Painkiller

98 Mute
(album: 98 Mute)

Insecurity this time it´s got the best of me. Apathy this time I think it´s killing me. Try to scream but I can´t make any noise. Try to breathe but the breath has lost my voice. There has got to be a better way. Some way to get rid of this fucking pain. Is my future in a razor blade? Sometimes suicide isn´t so insane. Bad memories so I drink to forget. But you see all I lose is self respect. No control no more goals and no more aim. Blackened soul everyday it feels the same. Can´t face the boredom that everyday brings. I´m feeling guilty for an uncommitted crime. Left dangling from a puppeteer´s strings. My body´s free but my mind is doing time. Suicide everyday a soul is lost. Justified I think I´ll carry my own cross. Bedside note sory mother if you cry. But life´s a joke so I think today, I´ll just lay down and die.